hye!

it's been a long time i'm not updating my blog..lack of time maybe...lately the works getting heavier than before..just lost my assistant..he flew for a new better job..rite now need to do all those thing on my own...it's just lots and lots...hope for a new assistant soon or they'll need someone to fill in my chair too...hehehhe...just kiddin'..times goes by..now we r almost at the end of year 2009..and to all muslim this coming friday will be our new year base on islamic calendar..



wish all of us to get a new strength,better prosperity,being a better muslim,better life,better determination n may our dream or hope will come true..



as for me 2009 just give me lots n lots of memories..sad,happiness,bitter,sweets,numb,everything. i had learn so many thing thruout this years..sometimes we just can plan but doesn't mean we will get what we want..pretty hard for me actually..but for any reason i just need to swallow it..we just don't know what Allah plan for us..it mite be not our time to get it. there is a reward for us if we keep thinking positively..it's hard..i know that.just breaking us down but just trust in faith thing happens for a reason..whatever it is what we will get after that will make us realize that is not a waste if we just w8 n lay back..just let Allah play the role..



for me there is no use for you to keep on torturing urself for not achieve this,that anything that u've been plan..as long as u put all effort to achieve it just reward urself for some relaxing..the good thing will come to you by itself..live ur life to the fullest...



as for me..there is thing that i wish i could had,but sadly it never happen..mite not be happen at all i guess...there is a thing that i never dream of but i finally got it..n there is a couple of things that i dream of and i get..but i'm not really hoping for that..i don't want any pressure regarding my achievement..i'm the flow follower hehehhe..and of course there is a new thing come into my life and there is a thing that i've been hold on to for so,so long..need to let it go..it just a big knock out.totally change my mind,life,way i'm thinking about life,way i'm making a dcsion and the way i look upon my life..it just a major transformation..n as for now,i just can't see it whether it was good or not..too early for me to determine..



so i'll wait for it..w8n for the result of mt decsion..i dunno if i win or lost..but hey! life is about gambling rite..today u r up,and the next day u mite b at the bottom..today tears will lead to tomorrow happiness. imean who knows rite.. i'll just leave it there..come what may, i'll do what ican n what i need to do..



i'm not good in planning..not that organise..so i just do what i do best..just go with the flow..





so welcome new year..welcome future..



i'll stay today to continue yesterday and to create tomorrow...





12.09 am.wednesday.16Dec09